Not really since I’ve never been able to program anything much beyond “Hello World”. It is simply a place holder as I can’t think of a witty title for this entry. So Zen meditation is so boring. You just sit there, trying not to think, but not trying too hard as that also defeats the purpose. Also 20 minutes doesn’t seem like a long time, but when you’re just sitting there alone with your thoughts it is. I’ve never spent so much time intently interested in the paint on the walls. I’ve only done it twice now and I can already tell that I am not comfortable with myself. I can’t stand to spend more than a minute or two all alone, before I go looking for a distraction, any distraction! I know on an intellectual level that meditation is suppose to help us break out of the “I/My” of ourselves and experience life, the moment, reality without getting in the way of it. This being our problem as humans, we can’t just live in the moment because we are too busy cluttering it up with shit from the past or illusions about the future. I have a serious problem with this, I hope the meditation helps as recognizing it doesn’t help at all, because you are still trapped in the whole ego thing… But, then if enlightenment were easy everybody would be a saint or a buddha…
Tag: life
One habit broken, starting a new one
it’s been over 30 days and I haven’t bitten one of my nails, so we’re going to say that that is done, Mission Accomplished! Unlike our President I doubt you’ll continue to hear about the struggle against my nails for the next 4 years when I say ‘Mission Accomplished’ I mean it! I’ve been biting my nails for as long as I can remember so I’m excited that I was able to break the habit. I have to admit that cutting them with a clipper is a hassle especially on my right hand, damn my dexterity! It does show a little more class than shoving them in my mouth…
Like I said in previous posts I’m going to try and start doing Zazen, specifically shikantaza, which according to Hardcore Zen translates into “just sitting”, he also calls it “the real deal” and “hardcore zen” I’m going to start tomorrow morning and do it for 20 minutes. Planning how to do it wasn’t that difficult. I just sit and look at a blank wall for twenty minutes, not trying to think, but letting thoughts come and go as they please. The important thing is to set up a consistent schedule and keep to it! I’ll report back to you all regularly on my progress. We’ll see how this goes…
In other news I’m taking a break from non-fiction for a bit, it is just too depressing right now, especially Squandering America.
More Soonish…
A chart for determining what video game system you should own
I found it very handy!
Random What Have Yous
As the title suggests this is just a little hodge-podge of going-ons, funny things I’ve found and, you know, random stuff…
First – I’ve completed my review for Contra 4, it can be found here
Next – I’ve been a Ron Paul supporter for awhile now but doing looking closer at the man’s platform has changed my mind. As much as I like libertarian ideals and ideas, it’s not practical or realistic in the world today. Tony Long does a great job explaining why here, he said a lot of what I was feeling in a much more understandable and shorter way. Please read!
Third – This funny comic by political cartoonist Matt Davies. It started with Edwards then Obama took it, now every candidate in both parties is talking about “change” in Washington D.C. as a new thing. Politicians have been promising the American voter change for the last 200 years, somehow though they’ve yet to deliver… strange…
Lastly – I promise real content soon! Um, I’m working on something… Yeah, that’s the ticket! Seriously though I’ve fallen way behind on my own work, I need to rectify that, it’s going into the list of resolutions (speaking of which still not biting my nails!). I have a few ideas for good postings, I hope they show up here soon!
That’s it for now!
P.S. Kisses Diana!