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I finished playing Professor Layton and the Curious Village look for my review over at Gamestooge soon. I enjoyed the game but you won’t find it sneaking onto my top 10 DS games. I’ve picked up Etrian Odyssey mostly on the recommendation of everyone at Toastyfrog. I haven’t gotten into it yet so I can’t tell you my thoughts on it, I know that when it came out there was no fanfare and that it still sold out of its initial run and can only be found at a high price on the second hand market, apparently its a sleeper hit.

Finished my two applications for the government fellowships and mailed them out just in the knick of time. I’m not getting my hopes up, if I get it fantastic if not I’ll live. I have heard back from the graduate programs I applied to sadly I did not get into any graduate school. I have my internship which starts in March it goes until August, what happens after that? I couldn’t tell you. I’m living for today, or for the next few months.

EDIT: The review is up now! Follow th HTML! Link

Finding Groove

What do I mean when I say that? I’m talking about getting into whatever it is you get into you. Groove is that weird place where things happen on almost a subconscious level, you’re in charge but everything is nearly automatic and without perturbing yourself. You can find groove in sports, writing, working, exercise, meditating, anything. So how do you find it, that’s the 1000 dollar question. Is it something you slip into naturally or do you have to work at it? Does it take repetition? For myself the only times I’ve been able to slip into groove is in water polo and swimming, during competitions or games, there were times where you’re body automates itself and you just knew where to go, what to do and when to do so. I imagine that this happened only because for 4 years of my life I did nothing but live, eat and sleep water polo.

When it comes to writing and finding groove it is much more difficult for me, I find that I have to spend anywhere from 15 minutes to a couple of hours writing “junk” before I hit my groove, and then once I do I slip into the groove and writing comes much more easily. I sometimes suspect that if I spent as much time writing as I did practicing and playing water polo I’d find myself grooving much more easily…

So let me know, how do you find groove? What helps you slip into it and how do you sustain it?

Thoughts on Atheism and being Alone.

I’m an Atheist and so I believe that the universe and this planet were not created especially for us humans, and that it moves on unaware of us and uncaring. Indeed it can’t do either as it isn’t a person and doesn’t have any intelligence. I was raised a Christian and I sometimes miss the wonderment and mystery that theology brought me, feelings I believe every faith brings to its followers. Let me explain:

I’m going to talk about Christianity first as it is the most popular religion in the USA, the modern Church doesn’t talk about it much, they like to play down the supernatural parts of their religion, for some reason they’re still trying to compete with Science which is a game you can’t win, but anyhow. There is all sorts of magic and mystery to the Christian faith. All types of angels, legions of demons, lesser gods, demi-gods, earth spirits, witches, the mystery of blood sacrifice, the mystery of communion, saints… On and on. A Christian world is one full of invisible and powerful forces working for and against you, forces that can be controlled or turned to your will! That’s pretty amazing! The same goes for the worlds that Muslims, Hindus, Buddhists, and every other theistic or supernatural inclined person lives in. The world I live in is empty, vast and completely indifferent to my struggles, furthermore it is indifferent to the struggles of everyone and everything. Humanity is alone in it. If we are not alone we are separated from anything else by such vast lengths that we will never know them and they will never hear from us. So yeah, a materialistic view of the universe can be full of wonder and mystery but it is a distant, uncaring one.

As a human I instinctively want the world and the universe to care about me. Narcissistic? Yeah, but that’s Humans for you. Religion answers that need, it makes you feel safe and cared for… I miss that sometimes…

Random Code – Previous Post

So the previous post, the piece of poetry… It looks better over at my DeviantArt account. They let you use text formating over there that WordPress seems to be ignoring. If you want to see how the poem is suppose to look please follow the link below. If you want to hear how it sounds, you’ll have to wait for me to do a reading, or read it out loud to yourself and those three lines after “three” pause, breath out and sigh. Then return to the litany of the poem.

So why write a poem about OCD? Well, you write what you know 😛 Seriously though, it seems funny and cliche that someone would sit in front of a door turning their key in the lock over and over, and of course it is funny, it is ridiculous actually. Makes for great comedy on the television, except for the person stuck there doing it. They’re stuck in a loop, if you know something about code you can say their stuck in a bug, a bad “if…then” statement. But for some reason they’re brain much like a computer can’t break the loop. Not without a lot of anguish on their part. If you know someone with OCD or suffer from it yourself please look into it, there are a lot of ways to deal without. Many don’t require any drugs at all. Oh, and give that person a hug and let them know you’re there for them.

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