False(B)logic

I was going to post my resolutions for this New Year in the hopes that perhaps posting them in a public arena would insure I worked at keeping them. I have decided to forgo the process though for two reasons: I haven’t made any resolutions in 4 years, and no one reads this. I stopped making resolutions in 2002 because at the time I was sure that I wouldn’t be living long enough to keep or fulfill them, as it is 2006 and I am still here, I might want to rethink my stance. The hassle of coming up with areas of my life that need improvement though is too much. I am consumed by the simple tasks that arise daily, no time for planning and working on ‘maybes’ and ‘perchances’. If I were to make a resolution it would be to write more. My prose is sorely lacking in several areas I fear and my ‘inspiration’ is so infrequent and fleeting that counting on it is a guarantee that I will never write! Do I have aspirations/expectations for this new year? Certainly, I hope to graduate and find a decent job in magazine or book publishing, I hope to be able to start paying down my debt, and I hope to be able to apply to a graduate school at the end of this year or prepare to apply in the next. These are all a long way off though and the future is seen as if through a glass darkly.

Winter quarter started today here at UC Davis. This quarter is likely to be my most difficult here in northern California. I am taking 20 units and will be working around 20 hours a week. The average unit load for an undergraduate student is between 13 and 15 a quarter, the maximum a student can take is 28.5… This translates into school 5 days a week and about 6 or 7 papers to write. I am hopeful that things will go smoothly and that I will be able to adjust to the stricter study and academic schedule. My past though is haunting me as I have never been very ‘studious’. Obviously as the quarter progresses I will keep the readers updated.

On a sad note, oneword is down!? Typical, as soon as I discover something it disappears forever!

(Note to self: next time talk about the Producers. I saw it today and really enjoyed it. Some thoughts on it would be appropriate for a post.)

No it still hasn’t updated. I just did another entry on pane. Here it is, similiar to the first… I wonder why for me “pane” is still “pain”?

Why is it always this dullness in the back of my head? It doesn’t make sense. The pills don’t work anymore, but I take them anyone. I keep hoping that at some point, in the future they’ll do the thing I can’t do myself. But it

A valid question at this point would be where have you been the last three weeks? I don’t know if I have a valid one, just an answer. Finals. This week was finals week, and the one before that I had 2 major papers due. So, I have been writing, just not here or anywhere else worth mentioning. My last final was tonight and so begins my three weeks of semi vacation. I still have to work and I will not be going home for the holidays, but, no classes! Yea!

Has everyone heard that the Senate voted down the renewal of the Patriot Act? If not you can find the story here or here. I guess you’re opinion on the matter depends on how you perceive the current administration, your civil rights, and the relationship between the two. I for one am relieved and cautiously elated. The broad powers the Patriot Act gave to several government agencies and the administrations shaky, no, non-existent stand on civil liberties (most recently seen in Pres. Bush’s illegal authorization to allow the NSA to tap citizen’s phones), always gave me this Orwellian sense of impending doom. The republican machinery in the senate still plans on bringing the vote to the floor before the recess… I only hope those who voted it down today will continue to do so.

Let’s see what else, what else? I did some tinkering ’round with the desktop, mostly using Stardock products. While they offer a deep level of customization, in the end all the modifications were to buggy and CPU intensive for practical use. I just hope that Vista will be more customizable. For those who are serious into desktop customization, Stardock’s site isn’t a bad place to start, other sites worth mentioning would WinCustomize, Winstep, and Samurize. Like I said some of this stuff can hog precious CPU cycles. The aesthetic pleasure that these can provide wasn’t enough of a pay-off for me. The same can be said for programs like approcket and konfabulator.

I’ve recently be disappointed in oneword, there haven’t been any updates since my last post?! I guess they’re just as busy as I was. I hope that they’ll have a new one up soon. As soon as they do I’ll post my piece here. Also in regards to writing, I made my own oblique strategies deck. It is possible to find originals on eBay or to buy them from Eno himself. But I found it more economical to just browse through the digital deck and copy them down. I’m hoping these will help when I get blocked. As I start to use them I’ll report on how well it is working. A better schedule coming up soon, with I hope, consistent posting. Stay Tuned!

While looking way for ways to practice my craft I stumbled upon oneword. Maybe stumble is the right word. The site was pointed out to me by Jonathan at stark raving calm, another writer who has devoted a large part of his blog to exploring his talent and helping others find theirs. oneword is good as an exercise because it only gives you one word and limits your time. You have sixty seconds to write the very first thing that pops into your head and to keep with it.

So here is my first oneword entry, the word was pane:

Pain. That’s all there is now. I know I’m rolling on the floor and I know they are still there. But all of that is secondary. All I can feel is the pain. It rises like flames and sets my mind afire.

I plan on putting this up on the blog from now on. Whenever a new word comes out. If you are interested in this sort of thing you should also check out poetc, a collaborative poem where everyone writes a line to the poem until a new one is started.

If on a whim you are interested at looking at some of my other writing, you should click here. This is my Deviant Art account where I post most of the writing I do.