LSATs!… eventually

So I started studying for the LSAT’s today. If you call and hour of my nose in my guide studying… I wasn’t just staring at the pages blankly, I was actually reading, studying, exerting mental energy. But, only for an hour. I need to look over my calender and start scheduling study sessions. If I have to leave home in order to actually study I’ll do that too. I just need to get it done, you know? I waste an inordinate amount of time doing nothing. While I am in the middle of committing these acts of nothing I am busily thinking about all the things I can and should be doing. This is a recipe for disaster! I need to transfer all these thoughts into actions. Stop living in my head and start living in reality.

I also have to register for the GREs, study for them, and begin giving a hard look at schools. Of course, before I do that I should decide on what type of graduate program I want to get into.

So many choices, no ideas what to do. So may ideas, and no will to make them.

I’m trying to stay positive. Look, I’m writing here. I have two ideas on back boilers, one in the pot. Things are good. I need to get focused and stay there is all.

Job Hunt… never ends…

*Le Sigh*

I spent the morning tweaking my Resume and creating a generic cover letter (or 2, or 3, or… you get the idea). Why am I doing this? I can’t work as a book seller at Borders forever, well not without killing myself and several others . After cleaning my paperwork up, I started looking for internships and jobs through UCD’s Internship and Career center website. The site is a byzantine network that I had troubles navigating through, eventually though I got to the search section. After an hour of searching 2 things were painfully obvious to me. One: My degree will not help me find a job in any way, shape, or form. Two: There aren’t a lot of jobs out there of what I want to do. Number two is the real issue. I don’t know what I really want to do with my life, I only have the most amorphous sense of what I want to accomplish in this life. I found a listing for an editorial internship at Prima, I sent them a resume and cover letter. I also shot one off to Ziff Davis Media Inc. I worry I will never hear back from either one. I tried calling Ziff today and their phone system doesn’t give you an operator …ever. I know they’ll be asking for interns again, but it won’t be till the beginning of next year, can I wait that long?

I’m not holding my breath. Guess I should stop wasting time and study for the GRE and LSAT. Though, if I do take them and do well and get into Grad or Law school, will I be any better off than I am now? I still won’t know what I’m suppose to want to do here, I’ll only be delaying the inevitable.

Enough with the depressing soul searching.

George W. Bush is a Tyrant and traitor to these United States

Look Here. If you are at all familiar with the internet, you’ve probably already seen it. It’s big over on digg and I’ve seen it covered on at least 3 alternate radio stations, and on dozens of blogs.

If you haven’t read the article you should. Better click on the links to the actuals executive orders and read them. If you don’t already suspect our current president of being a tyrant, then this certainly should convince you! This document, whose purpose is to insure in case of a catastrophic event that the constitution of the United States of America and the government it creates is preserved, it violates every article, not to mention the very spirit, of that document.

When will we as American citizens wake up to the danger of our current government? When will we as a people decide to take back the rights guaranteed to us by the document that every politician in every state of the union, and in the national capitol seems hell-bent on taking from us?

Soon I hope…

Work in Progess: Poetry

So, this is the piece I’m currently working on (well, at least poetically. I have a prose story idea that I am constructing right now as well.) I don’t know what I’m trying to do with this piece. Something with the age of man, the mystery of the past, and the romanticism of lost civilizations…

Just remember it’s not complete.

Down, down, and
Down
through blues
purples
into deepest
blacks

Hot and black
amidst the smoking stacks
of an alien world
Here where
everything
is a stranger
a wanderer
where nothing is welcome
and nothing
stays
it lies
if the suns rays
could reach
glory would be
reflected back
but this place
fell
so long ago
Where angels walked
now demons swim

Monuments to Man
pride
lie broken
scattered
few stand
humbled by the vast
nothingness
covered and veiled in
microbial life
that is their only
witness
Here man was born
and here
civilization died
where miracles and marvels
once hurried about
there is only
the smoke
the darkness

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