Moses down from Sinai, a poem

unattributed.

You never forget
The words of
A vagrant prophet
A junkie messiah
Anointed in the
Castoffs of the
World, spiced
By the rancid
Odor of
Rotting teeth

No

You never forget
Never mind
That he’s deranged
Consumed by
A hunger
Nothing here
In reality
Can provide

In hoarse words
He assaults your ears
Spitting preacher’s words
From a waste bin pulpit

“The world opens
And shopping
Carts fall in,
Then you
Will know
The age of
Garbage has
Come
The rise of the Refused.”

Powerful words
Even when they
Mean nothing
For a mere coin
More such street
Wisdom can be
Bought
For a bottle of
Cheap liquor
An Apocalypse
Is yours

Just remember
The given words
Are yours alone
For this destitute
Joshua leaves
All his memories
At the bottom
Of empty bottles

Trying to free
Himself of the demon,
God.

 

PS – If you enjoyed reading this, if this touched you in anyway. Please let me know. This is one of (many) poems I am considering for submission. I’d like some feedback and critique though, as I can’t get it anywhere else. So, if you have a moment please leave a comment with your thoughts. Thank you.

What is Di Mortui Sunt all About?

Di Mortui Sunt is my personal blog and it shows, the things I write about here are varied and mostly unrelated.  In an attempt to perhaps focus the blog on a specific topic and to satisfy my own curiosity I visited Wordle and had a Word Cloud made of my blog, (it’s that image up there, at the top.  The one that looks like a large grouping, or cloud, of words) two things happened as a result of this:  I found a really fun new font, coolvetica, that I will be using in documents; and two, that I write mostly about games.

The question is do I want Di Mortui Sunt to be a blog about videogaming?  As much fun as that sounds I don’t see myself contributing much to the discussion, when there are really excellent gaming blogs out there (Gamespite, Dubious Quality, Gamasutra, oh, and my own Gamestooge to name only a few) who are taking the hobby seriously.   Okay, so gaming isn’t what this site is about, what about writing?  I’ve posted my writing here and I’ve certainly talked about it here.  Since, writing is important, as is the written word, I think it’s safe to say that they are apart of what Di Mortui Sunt is.  I’ve talked about government here as well and I’ll continue to do so, as I’m involved in it at a professional level and I won’t be able to get around it

I think that I’d like to see Di Mortui Sunt have more focus.  I’m writing for myself here, but I’d like to have what I say be of some use to those who read it, even if they take nothing more from it but a smile.  Since, I’m lacking inspiration now, besides making this a blog about the lack of Gods, (the title up there says “the Gods are dead” in Latin) and everyone know we have a overabundance of atheist blogs and sites.  I’ll ask you dear reader what you think?   Perhaps a blog about being spiritual without being religious?  Or attempted at living authentically in an inauthentic culture?  Or maybe I should just rant here about the black helicopters, Glenn Beck and Area 51?  Let me know in the comments.

I’m going to keep writing about games and other things but I think I’ll find a new place to do so.

EDIT:  Light colors on a white background doesn’t work very well does it, click for the full-sized image and things will be easier to read

EDIT: I re-named the blog on 8/1/11 to False(B)logic

Reflections on Autumn

This is going to be a short but important post for me. I’ve had one of my poems published in a magazine. The Yolo Crow is a literary magazine for the California county of Yolo, where I live. I submitted one of my poems, Reflections on Autumn, in June and I found out at the end of last month that my poem had been accepted for publication and would be appearing in the Fall 2009 issue (it’s the first poem in the book.)

Autumn Ride  by Ming Chai
This is going to be a short post but an important one for me because I’m telling you about my poem being published in a chapbook!  The Yolo Crow is a literary magazine for the California county of Yolo, where I live.  I submitted one of my poems, Reflections on Autumn, in June and I found out at the end of last month that my poem had been accepted for publication and would be appearing in the Fall 2009 issue (it’s the first poem in the book.) You should visit their site and order a copy of it!  While you’re doing that tell them why you’re buying it too.  I might have posted the poem here before but I think re-posting it is in order, so you’ll find it below.

This isn’t the end. I’ve submitted other poems to other magazines and will continue to do so.  I do need to spend more time writing poetry though.  Next month, as this month is NaNoWriMo and I’m participating again for the third year.  I’ve never been able to successful complete a NaNoWriMo challenge and I don’t see that happening this year either.  Instead of writing a 50,000 word novel I’m aiming for 10,000 words this month ,which should be difficult enough.  What is 10,000 words, a novella?  We’ll call it a short story.

In other news, I’ve got the garden all planned out and priced, as well as the fire pit and patio around it.  They’ll both becoming together over the next month and a half.  As soon as I get a camera and a scanner I’ll be uploading pictures and images of it all.  We have a composter on the way too, which should cut down on our garbage and help with the garden.  Busy, busy times!

I’ll end with a random thought, Lava Lamps.  Are they the most amazing thing to come out of the 1960’s?

Reflections on Autumn

Light pierces the eye, hits the pan of the skull,
a dazzling display that with every fold of color, every shimmer, brings pain.
The sky is empty and the eternity of clear blue is marred by only
the stooping sun.
The breeze lazily curls around the body, seeking, slipping through thin cloth, brushing against flesh;
flesh pale and cold, unwarmed by blood that is too thin,
pumped by a heart that works like the engine of a run-down Chevrolet,
pumping, struggling….and finally pumping again.
The wind carries merely the hint of things that once were
which now lie buried by ash and forest debris,
fermenting in soil.
On barren trees but for a few leaves
fruit hangs overripe on the vine,
pungent skins cracked and bleeding
drawing endless clouds of insects
which fill the air with the sound of
contentment.
Contentment that lasts for but an instant, a flash, and it is gone
and they are gone,
small bodies littering the ground
struck down by a cold that comes from the north,
from lands far distant.
From plains of unbrushed life,
fields of ice radiate  iridescent
under an atmosphere thinned,
thin like the flesh of a grape,
or the calm on water,
easily torn, easily broken.
Thin like the soul…

The Tim Machine

His son though seem gifted with an ability to find new ways to end his life. Assisted by the near total absence of adult supervision Tim found ever increasingly bizarre and improbable ways to kill himself.

This is a piece of short fiction I wrote for a writing exercise for the Writer’s group I participate in. The idea was to take a story everyone knows (in this case The Time Machine by H.G. Wells) and remove one character, the ‘e’, and write a new story with that as the title. This is the work that was inspired by the ‘The Tim Machine’:

“Not again…” Was the first thought that crossed eminent geneticist Dr. Roland Tellers’ mind as he looked at the mess in his backyard, the next was “how does this keep happening?”  A dark stain underneath the junior jungle gym led him to believe it had started there, the lack of a body though momentarily confused him until he heard the low growl of  the family pet, Tilly, a supposedly harmless chocolate lab, beyond the tree line, as he walked across the manicured lawn he noticed a depression the grass weaving itself back to the sound he was following.  Just under the trees he caught a glimpse of Tilly and she of him.  The dog, usually playful and exuberant let out a low whine and came towards him her head down, tail wagging, Roland absently noticing her blood smeared muzzle.  Dr. Tellers didn’t bother reprimanding the dog, at this point, she knew she was in no real trouble.  Besides she’d only being following the instructions coded deep within her, a code Dr. Tellers had was intimately familiar with.  Quickly assessing the damage Dr. Tellers recognized that his son was beyond his help and went inside to get a trash bag and a shovel.

He had never wanted a son, never wanted a wife either, the two had just happened Roland considered both of them accidents which had cost him and his work dearly.  Roland’s love was only for his work, at a young age he had given up a broader life for the heady pursuit of knowledge.  He had made his first notable science experiment in middle school and had managed to get a  paper on protein-peptide interactions published in a small prestigious journal, his life unrolled in a predictable matter, college, graduate school, and professorship.  The only hiccup was Juliana, who he had met in graduate school, and who for some reason seemed obsessed with Roland.  Their “courtship” couldn’t be recognized as such by anyone, Juliana pursued and Roland ignored.  It was out of the hopes of reducing distractions that he said yes to her when she proposed to him for the fifth time, a poorly thought out conclusion that was.  Juliana immediately intruded herself into the one aspect of Roland’s life he consider important his work… From that low “high” the relationship rolled downhill.  Dr. Tellers regretted that he ever had sex with his wife and he very much regretted that after their divorce when she found out she was pregnant she’d decided to keep the baby.  The child that shared half of Roland’s genetic makeup was a  small, cute, high-spirited boy.  Juliana named the boy Timothy.  Not wanting a child but unwilling to let the boy go fatherless Roland attempted to simulate what he thought a father should be, when it didn’t interrupt with his work.  So it was that every weekend Roland picked up Timothy and took him back to his house, and then attempted to be a father while letting the boy do whatever it is boys do.

The first time it happened Dr. Teller’s was terrified, despite the fact that it was an accident and he himself was blameless, he had been working in his basement lab at the time.  Reporting it to the Police or having to interact with Juliana would take too much time.  It was dumb luck that Juliana was on vacation and he had the boy for a month, that he had been working on aging, and the simple genius to apply what he had been working on in the lab to his own personal problem.  Two weeks and countless failures later he pulled it off, just in time to hand the boy back to his mother when she came to pick him up.  Of course, that first model had some kinks to work out, a few bugs and oddities to it, Roland noticed them almost immediately.  The boy was lackadaisical, absent mind and ed, his skin took on an odd tint under direct light.  Dr. Tellers though had ample time to perfect the process, he did after all see the boy every week.  Better though, the work he had done on Tim, had given him insights into aging and the proteins responsible for the process.  Paper after paper came out of his lab as he recreated the field of gerontology, making Roland Tellers famous, respected, and rich.  Tellers hardly noticed and everything went back into his work.  By the fourth model Dr. Tellers had perfected the process, had grown bored, and moved on to other things.

His son though seem gifted with an ability to find new ways to end his life.  Assisted by the near total absence of adult supervision Tim found ever increasingly bizarre and improbable ways to kill himself.  Dr. Tellers at times suspected that somehow, despite the scientific impossibility, his son knew that it didn’t matter what he did, a new him would be back the next day.  As he got older, the boy was ten now, the deaths became more and more ridiculous, and then they became mundane.  As Roland gathered his son’s, more precisely another copy of his son’s, intestines in a bag he began to regret ever having cloned and rapidly aged his son 10 years ago, but after all this time it was much, much too late to go back.  Having gathered the boy into the bag he carefully took the bag down into the basement and threw it carelessly into the incinerator and started the beast up.  As he made his way into his basement lab he absentmindedly started up the machine that he so long ago had callously labeled “The Tim Machine”. He still chuckled at the name…  By the morning Tim would be back in his bed and no one but him and Tilly would know anything had happened.

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