Re-reading Camus

My hope is that as I re-read it I can look at my previous thoughts and compare them with what I am thinking now and compare and contrast them, and in so doing see just how my own philosophy and thoughts have changed and in what directions.

Tizian's Sisyphus
Tizian's Sisyphus

I first read Camus in high school.  My sophomore or junior English class was given The Stranger as a reading assignment.  I don’t think I quite understood everything that was going on in that book, perhaps due to failure of my teacher to provide context to the story or to the philosophical debate that was the background of the work.  Despite my original distaste for Camus sparse writing style I began reading his other works and through Camus I discovered existentialism and such philosophers as Nietzsche, Sartre, Wittgenstein, and many other prominent philosophers.

I’ve read many of the complete works of those listed above, but that was about 10 years ago.  I tried to re-read Thus Spoke Zarathustra and Ecco Homo recently and found that I had moved on, had changed that those works didn’t speak to me as they once had.  So, I put those books down and moved on to other things… But, in the back of the mind I wondered, “How much have I changed?”  If a book that had had such a huge influence on my life then, one of the most influential books I’d ever read, no longer resonated with me how much had changed?  Were there other books that I’d find opaque that were once clear?  I wanted to find out.

I’ve just started reading Camus’ The Myth of Sisyphus and other Essays,”  again. The work deals with the issue of suicide and if it makes sense, even in a world that is recognized as absurd.  I chose this book because I remember liking it when I first read it, and I wrote throughout the margins my thoughts and comments on the text.  My hope is that as I re-read it I can look at my previous thoughts and compare them with what I am thinking now and compare and contrast them, and in so doing see just how my own philosophy and thoughts have changed and in what directions.

This is hopefully just the first of a number of posts on the text and my reactions to it.

On Hearing of the Movie Bucket List

So make a list, nothing wrong with one more unfulfilled dream

All the things
you’ve wanted to do with
life
but didn’t
because
of…
What? Hard to
tell
scared of
chance
scared of
anything
that isn’t
planned
tied down
with all
the things
everyone
says I should
be
but aren’t

Leaves you
feeling lost
beside your
life
not knowing
what to do
failing them
failing me
so now
when the only thing
left
to do is die
I have to make up
for all the things
I’ve wanted
desired
but set aside
and now
it’s much, much
too late
to make amends

So make a list,  nothing wrong
with one more unfulfilled
dream

Random Thoughts: World of Goo

This is something that all games (video or otherwise) do well. They introduce simple concepts that are easy to understand and then slowly require the player to master these rules to progress.

World of Goo
World of Goo

I started playing World of Goo last weekend.  I’ve been playing it obsessivley since and beat it just a few days after purchasing it.  I’ve spent a large chunk of my free time moving the slimy building “blocks” around the screen. 

Sitting here now I’m trying to isolate just what about this game made it so engaging.  I suspect that like many things that people find entertaining over sustained periods of time it is that the rules are easy to learn but difficult to master.  World of Goo is easy to pick up and play, even if you’re unfamiliar with video games, in minutes you’ll be manipulating the goos into simple structures like bridges and towers and unconsciously dealing with such complex issues as weight load and structural balance.  The game slowly demands that you construct better and better structures  in order to solves the puzzles while providing a sand box mode where you’re free just to build with the the goos.

This is something that all games (video or otherwise) do well.  They introduce simple concepts that are easy to understand and then slowly require the player to master these rules to progress.  Using our brains natural tendancy to reward itself when it solves a problem to keep us playing their game! 

If you haven’t tried the game yet I hope you’ll at least pick up the demo, and give it a try.  You won’t be disappointed.

Contemplating Dystopia

I don’t think the prognosticators will be right (they’ve never been in the past, western culture has been on the brink of destruction since at least the 1500s if you dig back far enough). That doesn’t mean we can ‘t learn anything from them though.

Not a real post, rather a small thought on the gloom that seems ubiquitous right now.

It’s easy enough to do considering the current economic crisis.  Difficult times have always been fertile ground for the growth of apocolytpica.  I’m also not the only one thinking about it, Fox News appears to have gone into full-blown imminent disaster mode since Barack Obama took office, The Jan. 26, 2009 issue of the New Yorker had a 9 page article on prospective end-times and the people among us who are their prophets.  I’ve even started reading the blogs of some of these dystopians (here and here).  I don’t agree with these people but reading their works is fascinating, much in the same way reading Revelations is. 

I’m too much of an optimist to ever entertain thoughts of dystopia, of a world so fractured and destroyed that it’d be unrecognizable to you and me.  But I do find reading about it educational.  I don’t think the prognosticators will be right (they’ve never been in the past, western culture has been on the brink of destruction since at least the 1500s if you dig back far enough).  That doesn’t mean we can ‘t learn anything from them though.  It might not hurt to reduce your debt and have a small cache of food storage is a good idea too.  Buying a gun and retiring to the wilderness?  Not so much.

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