Not really since I’ve never been able to program anything much beyond “Hello World”. It is simply a place holder as I can’t think of a witty title for this entry. So Zen meditation is so boring. You just sit there, trying not to think, but not trying too hard as that also defeats the purpose. Also 20 minutes doesn’t seem like a long time, but when you’re just sitting there alone with your thoughts it is. I’ve never spent so much time intently interested in the paint on the walls. I’ve only done it twice now and I can already tell that I am not comfortable with myself. I can’t stand to spend more than a minute or two all alone, before I go looking for a distraction, any distraction! I know on an intellectual level that meditation is suppose to help us break out of the “I/My” of ourselves and experience life, the moment, reality without getting in the way of it. This being our problem as humans, we can’t just live in the moment because we are too busy cluttering it up with shit from the past or illusions about the future. I have a serious problem with this, I hope the meditation helps as recognizing it doesn’t help at all, because you are still trapped in the whole ego thing… But, then if enlightenment were easy everybody would be a saint or a buddha…
